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Current Mood: grumpy
Current Music: "Stay My Baby" - Miranda Cosgrove

Hi everyone! Thank you for both reading the fic and caring enough to come and read my commentary! I've never done a fic commentary before, but with this fic, it turns out I have lots of thoughts about wish babies, taking about nine months to write said fic, and also writing fic for a show I have not watched. [As a note, I wrote this between Feb. 12 and March 2nd, so it doesn't involve anything to do with S8b or my more recent, ongoing watch-through.]

First, as of typing this, I've seen ... two or three episodes of 9-1-1. The season 8 Halloween episode got posted on twitter and so I watched it, then I watched the next... 2? Live. SO that was fun (Eddie Risky Business dancing and BuckTommy breakup live was an incredible way to start watching officially/unofficially). But for the majority of writing this fic, I was basing a lot of things off of what I learned from my friends in the fandom, who put together a powerpoint about the show/buddie specifically. Also I've read frankly more than my fair share of fic, and watched tons of edits.

WISH BABIES! As I said in the author's note, I started writing this fic because in a discord, we were talking about wish baby fics, and how they aren't terribly widespread, or popular. But those of us who've read them and written them love them, and we want more wish baby fics in the world. We were also talking about buddie/Bi!Buck in a different channel, so we all agreed that Buck would absolutely be someone who would get an accidental wish baby. And thus, this fic was spawned.

The main thing about wish babies is that "babies are born because people wish them out of the sky." When I first encountered the idea/what I believe is the original wish baby fic, I was thinking of it in a way that means every baby is wanted, and everyone who wants a baby enough can wish one into existence. Essentially doing away with people having children who don't want them and infertility in one fell swoop. But in thinking about how wish babies exist within a canon that includes that not-quite-happy accidental baby that is Chris, and the whole Eddie and Shannon of it all, I got to think about how wishing could be accidentally mis-directed toward a baby. Similar to how people sometimes think a baby will fix a relationship and that's practically never the right move, but with more wiggle room. Of course, wish baby universes are similar to the omegaverse in that there is no one set of rules, so if you prefer a wish baby universe in which many babies are born the quote-unquote “usual” way, but there are also babies wished out of the sky, that works too. But that's not the wish baby universe of this fic.

Okay, with that out of the way, let's get on to the contents of the fic!

( Chapter by chapter commentary under here! )

Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: Cloud Atlas Sextet

Posting here because Tumblr deleted it, and I want a reliable link for people until it's done and posted on Ao3.

It Was Only A Kiss

Fandom: Girl Meets World

Ship: Lucas/Maya

Word Count: 730

Summary: It’s been a year and a half since Lucas and Maya went on their date designed to create jealousy, and he’s not really okay seeing her flirt with other guys.

A/N: Whoops! My hand slipped. A first kiss fic (that’s really all I wanted - for them to kiss!) that is the first of what I’m sure will be my many GMW fics. [Technically unfinished because I’mma add smut soon/later.]

( it causes a giant swooping sensation in his gut )

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: Sing - Ed Sheeran

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Corsets.

Or cigarettes. - Please note, not tobacco that's grown - the change from smoking an actual plant into something disgusting that I can never accept in society.

Or Twilight.

~~Or Kindles and other brand equivalents.~~

Current Mood: busy

To be clear:

My last entry, referring to not being happy in fandom, had absolutely nothing to do with my friends' list. I love everyone on my friends' list, and they have always been the most wonderful people I have ever known, and nothing will stop me from loving them.

There should also be a distinction here about me not actually giving a fuck who anyone ships. I don't need to know who you ship or why to talk to you. I love talking about characters and plot arcs and canon background and character development, and a lot of this weaves in and out of shipping, but these things are not the same, it's possible for me to agree on one point but not another. Fandom didn't stop making me happy because there weren't enough people shipping what I did - it was more about people I could really truly talk to about these wonderful things, and who was willing to talk to me. It sort of feels like I'm in a high school class talking about the basketball game last night when everyone else is talking about the party afterwards I didn't go to because I wasn't invited.

My last entry, when I referred to achieving more than my peers - I was referring to my high school graduating class, those people I run into at Wal-Mart or make awkward eye contact with at the Dollar General or hear about having babies. It also sort of refers to SMC. I mean, not reaaaally, because lots of people from SMC are super successful, but I want to be one of the really, really successful ones. In the realm of the alumni that work at Random House Publishing. Not one of the people who marry a ND man, possibly work as a teacher or a stay at home mom. Not because it's bad, or because I don't want an ND man (maybe) but because it's not what I want.

I just wanted to be extremely clear, because three of the people I love the most have taken me off of their friends' lists. And I couldn't bear to lose any more of you.

I feel like most of you already know those things (know me) .... but apparently some of you don't.

As some of you pointed out in your own LJs and/or twitters, there's a sentence-fic meme over in the Nick RPF comm (which I also just discovered exists. I joined. Fun times). I requested a Jerry/Jennette long!distance fic that was totally filled, and it was adorable and vaguely smutty, but I decided to fill my own prompt, which I'm sharing (plus at least like 6 other ones that are not long distance that I cranked out at work or some other time today). I think they're relatively good. But I always do. Here:

( long!distance, in the meme )--- (I put these first five on in the post, then I continued to work.)

Miranda doesn't even blink when she walks in on Jerry and Jennette their first day back for the fourth season during lunch, and when Jennette asks her about it later, blushing, Miranda just says, "It's not like I didn't already know, even if you weren't obvious. I have a knack for these things."

( random 7 more )

And no, these are not the typical meme prompt sentence fics of the meme that got me working. But they are me, and they are Jerry/Jennette, and I think they are both adorable and kind of hilarious, while being suggestive. And I tried, I really tried to think of a smutty sentence fic, and I COULDN'T. So I put in another sentence fic prompt and I managed to come up with that last one, or last two, or three, and they're still not very smutty at all, but still. Whatever. Plus, most of these are really just full-fics that I've always wanted to write and never had time to, or just ideas and their future I'm anxious to see. Like Jennette being worried about getting breast cancer like her mom, and the two walking the red carpet together, and them staring in a movie (chick-flick/romantic interests, preferably), etc, etc.

DAY OFF TOMORROW! *dances* I have errands, but I need to freaking write like a mad woman. My Bromance plot has to be in by July 1st (I can get it done, I just wanted to have a sample of the POV and style by then, too. :( ) and in addition to that, my muse was actually working with me last night and I pretty much know how the next chapter and more of the entire story is going to go for my Jalex future-fic/verse, which is good, but of all times, right?

I also just finished watching Mulan and I could write like, a thesis paper on all that is good and right, and inspiring, and hopeful with that movie. Here's a sample: 1- Actual Strong Female lead Character, 2-Chinese characters actually have chinese facial structure 3- IT IS TOTALLY BASED OFF OF A LEGITIMATE CHINESE LEGEND. But then there's the fact that "I'll Make a Man Out of You" is sung by Donny Osmond, and I mean, he's amazing, but now I realize it, it just totally throws me off. It's bizarre.

Oh, and while I'm being random - the newest Wizards episode was pretty awesome, right? It's like changing ages is the new characters in bodies that are not their own thing or something. I also just love Jerry/Theresa things, or things that emphasize that they are in fact a couple, and teenage!Jerry/Theresa was adorable. I also really like what they're doing with the Mason and Alex plot, because Alex is really really mature about her relationships now, and like, she really is a great girlfriend to Mason, and she has grown so much through this relationship that I am actually okay that it ever happened. Although I'm not exactly going to complain if they really do break up in the next episode, which is hinted at, but probably will not happen.

Current Mood: hot
Current Music: "The Dynamo of Volition" Jason Mraz

GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUYS!!!!!!!

Jennette - Jennette FINALLY has a song on CMT's Top 20 Countdown!

Oh, God, I'm crying tears of joy.

I mean, it's only number 19, but honestly, only like Taylor Swift and Reba and Rascal Flatts or Lady Antebellum start at like 10.

I am so excited. "Generation Love" is such a good song, too, and the video is gorgeous, and this is legit success, and the host even did a little backstory, like that she was in Faith Hill's video a long time ago, and there was a clip, and it was adorable, and, and, !!!!!!

CMT Top 20 Countdown actually is new every Friday morning, then it replays Saturday and Sunday mornings... and I only just found out. Because the TV was on Nick, which was on iCarly, and my Mom goes, "Did you know that she (referring to Jennette, whose name she does not know) was in a Faith Hill video?" Me: "yes." and then she told me that she had a video on Top 20, to which I go, "Generation Love? YAY!" And then I was told what position and my mom agreed that it is a good song and video.

Ironically, I remember Friday morning I was home alone and I came downstairs and I contemplated turning on Top 20, but I didn't. And now, Monday night, and I only just found out about it. You would have thought someone in the GroovySmoothie would have known or something. But no. I am very very tempted to go and make a celebration post in the GroovySmoothie right now, seeing as no one else cares... so I dunno. I need to get off the computer and read and/or go to sleep.

So... have my feelings in these GIFs!

:D ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

~~And yes, I'm sure Jerry is proud of her too. ;)~~

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: "Colder Weather" Zac Brown Band (CMT Countdown)

Oh, God, I feel like I'm going to die.

I just went around to the heavily used classrooms on campus that did not currently have a class in them and did not have a random studious student in them and wrote one of two things on the whiteboards:

"Interested in promoting / reproductive health and choice?"

or

"Upset Indiana de-funded / Planned Parenthood?"

both with "Contact aforne02" underneath (because that's my school email if you attach the @ to it.

And I feel so on-edge, because even though this time I didn't actually use the phrase "pro-choice" or the word "abortion" it's totally implied and the last time I tried to publicly gain other people so I could actually start an activist group my flyers got torn down and someone 'reported' them to Student Activities officials and I got an email telling me to STOP IT because any postings have to be approved by them.

And I am going to die.

I'm being melodramatic, but STILL. I'm just so pissed with all the pro-life shirts and people and random fliers and Indiana being stupid and just ARGH. I need to DO SOMETHING. And I'm just really freaking tired of not having enough people I know to even submit an application to become a group. And I'm running out of time. As I keep having to put on my course evaluations, I'm a junior. (Holy shit, btw. People in my classes I'm totally fond of and talk to on a regular basis are seniors and they're going to be gone.)

Random fact: I know that Kari Byron is married (as far as I know) and has an adorable daughter and stuff, but I still totally ship her with Tori Belleci. Yes, real people, and yes, they are famous. You know, if you watch Mythbusters. :) And the fact that Tori actually started using his Twitter only makes me ship them more.

Speaking of Twitter, LET ME UN-PROTECT MY TWEETS, DAMNIT!

And since this entry seems to be themed... here, have a video:

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Genius Mix: Musicals

So, crying right now guys. Crying.

It's Snape and Lily and Petunia and Tonks and Lupin and Molly and Ron/Hermione and.... *sobs*

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The answer to this question is so, ridiculously obvious.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

It's a magical song, and there is no better way to wake up. That's what we heard waking up in Broome. The sunshine coming in, and that song playing... all is right with the world. I don't know - it's really awesome. :)

Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Mary Poppins

Hi friends. I'm typing this on a library computer. Not even one in Trumper. One on the main floor. I don't know. I was checking my mail. I meant to post yesterday whenever I was in the dining hall w/ internet (dinner?) but LJ was down, but now I can add random things that have happened since then. But MAINLY:

I was randomly checking Twitter, and I clicked on one of the articles Jessica Valenti linked to about the rape culture in colleges (one of her articles). Here's the link: http://www.thedaily.com/page/2011/03/19/031911-opinions-column-campus-rape-valenti-1-2/ But this is what really affected me:

"This past September, college freshman Lizzy Seeberg killed herself after accusing a Notre Dame football player of sexual assault. Her parents say the campus police didn’t conduct a thorough investigation; it took the police two weeks after Lizzy came forward to interview the player, even after she received a threatening text message warning her against “messing with” football players."

Do you know why they say "college freshman" instead of ND freshman? Because Lizzy was a Saint Mary's student. My school. My school that is right across the street and totally, totally intertwined with ND. The article does mention the culture of the college campus, and that football players are "gods" that you don't mess with, etc. But that's not why this was striking to me. I went to Loyal Daughters and Sons. I know rape happens to ND/SMC students. I know we're working on making that not true or scary.

But this happened the semester I was abroad. I was in Australia when I got an email that a SMC student had died. A freshman, named Lizzy. The email(s) expressed the college's sorrow, President Dr. Mooney sent out an email expressing how this affected the college and how sad it was, one of the emails told me that counseling would be offered. I felt terrible, and sad, but I knew since she was a first year that I didn't know her. I was in a different country. But it said that she died in a hospital. It didn't say anything else.

But she was raped and killed herself. She got threatening texts. What sort of place am I living in if that isn't acknowledged? If her death isn't also met with a self-love atmosphere, and the campus believing when people say they've been raped? I'm just entirely flabbergasted. Maybe it is because I wasn't on campus. Maybe people here did know. I just don't know how to ask my friends that were here about it. :/

ON A HAPPIER NOTE:

( room picks, workshopping and classes )

Oh, and if any of you HAVE read the novella excerpt I posted here on LJ and did not tell me about it/ comment on it - you really, really should. I take criticism super, super well. Tell me if I suck.

ETA: Also, I got a Tumblr, but I am not telling you what the name is, because I never plan on using it. Eventually I might go looking to where you guys put what your names are, because I am following Nikki.

Current Mood: flabbergasted
Current Music: "Saturday" Fall Out Boy

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YES. And not just "learn" but learn the comprehensive way, where they learn actual facts about contraception and more than "wait until marriage" beacuse there is also gay sex and lots of other stuff, and not everyone gets married, and for heaven's sake, getting married does not automatically give you the information you need about sex. Unless you decide you're going to use the rhythm method (which is complex and you need a regular, reliable cycle for it to work) in which case THEN the Church will teach you.

I would go on, but this is exactly the subject I'm writing my paper on today, so I'd rather do that there. :)

Also: feel free to use this entry to rage or speculate about the iOMG promo that apparently is out, and is at the GS. I'm not sure it's going to be OMG in the way iCarly wants it to be. More like wtf are they doing? omg they are ridiculous. It's an episode about Sam's feelings. And ... like... no. Maybe Freddie is the person she can actually talk feelings with, because Carly DOES NOT HELP AT ALL. She is a terrible best friend in that respect. She's so condescending because SHE has experience and has had boyfriends and all the rest of it, and she just does not understand Sam at all. Grr, iCarly.

Current Mood: irate
Current Music: "Who Says" Selena Gomez

THE ANONYMOUS WRITING FEEDBACK MEME

Please do it. I don't trust my fiction writing classmates. The character sketches we read in class so far that weren't mine were very tell-y, and not show-y. So disappointed. Very few comments.

Oh, hey. I love you all. ♥ ♥ ♥

Current Mood: procrastinating
Current Music: Gilmore Girls "Say Something"

I should be sleeping. Instead, I'm watching Mythbusters, cleaning out my icons on my computer, EXCITED I GOT TWO NEW SPACES AND THUS TWO NEW ICONS... and now I'm going to tell you some thoughts about iChristmas. Because I can, I want to, and I've watched it more than twice in the last four-ish days.

- Apparently when Spencer was "born normal" he became a Stepford husband/lawyer. That's not normal. That's CREEPY.

- Carly has never seen any Christmas movie ever, right? Mitch is clearly Clarence, and angels have to get their wings. Duh. But nicely done with chicken wings.

- Spencer and Mama B are a creeeeeepy couple. Not to mention their Stepford-ness. Plus, you know if they're getting engaged they're sleeping together, and my mind is so upset it went there. Mostly because Mama B porn-thoughts make me uncomfortable, probably because she is a total wild beast and awesome, but she is Mama B. Just no. Also because my mind has already gone there because of that one fic jannika wrote where they hook up drunkenly post-Christmas party.

- I like what this episode does for the trio's dynamic. Or rather, the dynamic our main trio has with Carly. I think the Spencer relationship is super obvious, and was spelled out during the episode. And Sam's relationship with Carly shows in very much the same way that folkloric_feel and I have been known to discuss via iWon't Cancel the Show. So let's start with Freddie:

Freddie lets Rona WALK ALL OVER HIM. He buys her whatever she wants. For what? The fact that she stayed, and was some form of a girlfriend for him. He needs some affection, some friends. And did you notice his outfits and his backpack? Mommy-picked, for sure. Just like Carly's style has always been out there in regular canon, and so making more out - there decisions (for a Benson) rubbed off on Freddie. Without Carly as a legitimate potential girlfriend, and a friend that appreciates him, listens to his opinion, makes fun of him affectionately, well, Freddie has no personality. And it's not just because Carly is wonderful and magical and all that - Freddie's always been a Mama's boy, and Mama Benson is overbearing. Carly lives across the hallway and is someone Mrs. Benson knows, knows her family, and can butt in at any time. For anyone else, any other situation, Freddie would have way less freedom, and so much less a personality.

Sam. Well, iChristmas shows us that Sam would be in juvie without Carly. And I also have to say that all of those little character details are fantastic about Sam. And really, it's not that Carly has "kept Sam out of trouble" - but she's put her scheming and her mind and so much of her to good use instead of something illegal. iCarly especially. But also keeping her occupied, talking her out of going all aggressive in other ways when she's pissed or anything else. Best friends are so good that way. It's not just that you could call Sam a special case, it's that everyone needs a best friend.

- Jennette is a fanstasic actor. Miranda cannot fake cry.

- Normal trees can catch fire too, Carly Shay.

- Who goes to school on Christmas Eve?

Current Mood: tired

Some thoughts for "iStart a Fan War"

Things I liked:

( more than I thought? )
Things I Did Not Like:

( this stuff is so uncool )
Other Stuff:

( random )

Current Mood: uncomfortable
Current Music: iStart A Fanwar

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Well, Australians say "Cheers" instead. So there's that.

They also say, "hello, love" and I think I was called "darling" and both of those are more common than "G'day," at least in my experience.

But honestly - I don't want anything to replace "Have a good/nice day/afternoon/night." I'm a cashier and it's already ingrained in my routine, and what can you really say to strangers you still want to be nice and formal and polite to? Because the only situation where that phrase is common is in retail, and that relationship to people in retail - sellers vs customers is not going to change.

Whatever. This is a silly writer's block.

( she is better than you )

And while I'm on my soapbox, I am going to hit you over the head with something that was too upsetting and irritating and everything else last night to mention.

( back the fuck off )

*steps off soapbox*

Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: "Attention" The Academy Is...

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THIS IS SIMILAR TO BROOME TIME** AND IT HAS ALREADY BEEN ESTABLISHED THAT I DO NOT DEAL WELL WITH BROOME TIME. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*runs and hides*

** Broome time is also known as "there's no rush in the Kimberly" which is something I learned on a camping trip to the Kimberly region of Australia, in the Dampier peninsula, and the Aborigines live exclusively on Broome time, and it is very lenient on schedules, and when things will get done, and living in such a culture is as close as the world will ever come. It's incredibly relaxing, and the Aborigines I met were super awesome cool people, but I CANNOT HANDLE IT.

Here, have some iDo episode thoughts!

Liked:

( happy things )

Dislike:

( because there's always something to critique )

Overall, I don't really like or dislike this episode. It was funny, but there weren't a whole lot of stand-out jokes, although they are enjoyable, and the plot wasn't WHOA and the acting wasn't WHOA and the failure bits weren't WHOA. It was all very everyday and mediocre, but that doesn't mean it was a slice of life episode, it definitely was not. In general, I'm fairly neutral on the episode, and here's some neutral thoughts, too:

( new section! )

Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: "Electric Twist" A Fine Frenzy

Before youtube decides to grace the world with the new iDo (and iStart a Fanwar promo) I can watch... have some iSell Penny Tee thoughts?

Liked:

( only five! )

Nothing else really comes to mind. Although, I only watched it once, maybe twice.

Disliked:

( more concise )

Current Mood: tired
Current Music: Maybe This Time - Glee

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