Pathetic

[author_abz]

I think I might be addicted to this thing. That's very dangerous. It wouldn't be so bad if I just did this and was done with the internet and the computer.... but that's not how I happen to function. I'm very used to getting like 10 e-mails a day. Alerts from fanfiction.net and occasionally a PM or something. Usually something from a college. Recently all of my e-mail traffic seemed to stop. Normally I spent my time going through my mail - reading the stories updated etc., but now there's nothing to do and I wander around online wasting time doing nothing.... I keep looking in the same spots to find things that aren't there trying to occupy myself. I've spent more time on youtube and tv.com than normal - and it hasn't done anything for me. I waste just as much if not more time this way. I think I might have a disorder. Even if I actually don't have any homework to do or ANYTHING to do - it's like I'm procrastinating from doing something. Like I'm not feeling good and I've been wanting to go to bed since I got up this morning. Tomorrow there's no school so I can sleep in all I want or just do all my work then or something. Still - I'm not going to bed. There's not even Princess Da online that I'm talking to.

I'm not kidding - having nothing to do either sports-wise or general-wise just deteriorates me. I seriously think I have a disorder. This device called a computer (that I nicknamed 'Lucky')should be taken from me and I should be left with my music from it in limited quantities and that's it. I can't handle it. Great - it's midnight. I'm HORRIBLE!!!!!

On the plus side - Princess Da went and bought me a CD and DVD today (with my own money) and so now I have it. I've been waiting for it too! So... yeah. It's the Hannah Montana Soundtrack and the Hannah Montana DVD: Livin' the Rock Star Life. I know - I'm completely pathetic. Tell me something I don't know. Meh - avour.

-Abz